The experiences and exploits of a college grad trying to make it in the "real world:" leaving school and friends in New England, moving south, and living with her boyfriend. Watch as I pretend to be an adult.
The loop is a funny thing. It isn't tangible; you can't see it, smell it, or taste it... but you can definitely feel it. When you're in the loop, you have the warm, fuzzy emotions associated with being liked, being trusted, being confided in. When you're outside the loop, you are most definitely conscious of that as well. Whether it's because of a simple oversight or an active effort to shut you out, being out of the loop is generally a negative thing. You can feel ignored, disliked, unworthy of attention, or even the victim of some minor conspiracy. The opposite can be true as well. Being entrusted with a secret can make you feel burdened, or overwhelmed. Ignorance, in many cases, really can be bliss. Being in the loop can cause a feeling of forced reciprocity, a pressure to share with others as they have shared with you. It's not always a nice feeling. Why does the conveyance of a small piece of information (and let's be honest- it's rarely life altering, and usually is rather "highschool gossip" in nature) have such an effect on our emotional wellbeing? The loop can make us gain or lose trust in someone, make us feel loved or hated, and even cause us to reevaluate the way we view ourselves and our friends. Knowledge is power, they've said, and it seems that even the most trivial smidgen of it can pack quite a punch. I suppose it all relates back to cliques and friendships and wanting to be liked... But still. The loop is a funny thing.
After 22 posted at 5:48 PM
